Today was the callback to the final callbacks (supposedly) so I went in looking as close to looking exactly the same as last week. Got paired with the same fella and we eventually got in, I read it as close to the last notes they gave which was to play her more on edge/untrusting. We left the room and they said thank-you to my partner and asked me to stay. As my partner exited, I raced to the bathroom and saw his walk away with lost confidence. I then said, "Hey, great work, so nice seeing you again" in which he replied "It seems like you've made it to the next round," sadly. I look him square in the eyes and I tell him not to do that, because in this business you never know, they may have made the decision with him. The person they've got running back and forth isn't necessarily the shoo in...the actor that gets the hug from the casting director in the waiting room doesn't have the role yet...the person chatting with the director when you arrive or leave isn't always going to be the person picked. Understand this, that no matter what outside forces try to beat down your art, you walk in with strength and you leave with even more knowing you rocked it like no one else. I never allow outside things to shake my shine, I see the cd hugging an actor and I think, Wow, can't wait for my relationship to be there with them, I see the actor doing all the reading with everyone and I'm like, that will be me soon enough and I see the director chatting it up with another actor and I say, after they work with me, they will chat it up with me whenever they see me too. I do not let the fact that these things happening, lessen my shot in the room, in fact I accept is as a challenge to make them take even more notice of my work. When circumstances push you, you turn and face it and push back fiercely with all your training and work. I then went in with another guy who seemed to have been there all day with everyone and I repeated my performance with small nuisances because this guy gave me something different. Again, I was excused and asked to stay...then paired up with #3. He went in with someone else and I heard them state I could leave, I gathered my things and started to exit, down the hall I hear the casting director yelling my name and I head back in. I go into the room with #3, we perform the scene and I finally get to leave after an hour and a half. What a fantastical, chemistry pair up reading that was...good times just getting to see what you can bring with different folks...will I get this? Not sure but I do know that when the Casting Director and one of the writers saw me in the hallway entering before I went to sign in, they acknowledged me by name. That's a win in my book, one more casting office that is now a fan of my work...this is what makes me push harder. The breakdown for this role was for an Asian/Caucasian Female, I saw one other black girl there at the call backs and only me not fitting the role description all the way at the final call backs for this sci-fi film. When you know what they're looking for and still manage to change their minds enough to see you again is what you're made to do - just get in there and do that all over them, make their decision difficult and walk away knowing you gave it all you got. Booking the job is icing on the cake, getting to show them your art and having them appreciate that is the cake...keep on doing that so they know they can call you in for all different types of roles, that is my goal...not to be just one thing in their minds but for them to see an open end of possibilities in my choices.
So I've got 20 days in these 1st pictures to get my stretch on for "When Stars Align" at the Odyssey with 2 guaranteed performances and the days are rolling by as I wonder why I ever challenged myself to even try this feat. However, here's the journey so far as I'm pushing through to get this move...Yoga & Zumba, Ripped Class & Zumba, Yoga & Kickboxing and sometimes just stretching and I've gotten here! Urgh...this hurts so good...WHY? Can I do a take back???
I want that leg to hit my face and stay there with little to no effort...I've got 15 days left...and yesterday I was here in my Right/Left Leg splits...oh please just a few more inches!!! I can do this...maybe...HA! Time to eat...urgh...had to make my fruit infused water with cucumbers, lemons & cantaloupe ( so I can snack when I drink ) with a snack of vegan cauliflower soup from Follow Your Heart - organic, veggie spaghetti with kale, purple carrots, mushroom, red onions & yellow bell peppers in spicy sauce along with a organic fruit smoothie ( strawberries, bananas with skin, blueberries, vegan powder, apple cider vinegar, rice vinegar, flax & chia ) topped with crushed soy free egg shells for calcium.
To treat myself for all of this focus into my art, I gave myself an at home spa day...dead sea, clay body mask, egg whites for the face and neck and old mayo in the fridge left over from family visits all up in my hair...bring on the CHILLAXIN'! This costs maybe $10 at the most...all in the comfort of my own space. When you need to celebrate and don't have the extra moola to do so, you can figure out how within your budget but you must make the effort for yourself and your art. Don't put off your celebrations, it makes for an overworked spirit/mind/soul and that can never keep producing beautious work without the thankfulness you must give back. This shouldn't feel like work to you, this is play time with a shot to shoot!Decided to focus on my Dramatic Scene/Comedic Scene Reels over Labor Day Weekend and although I was missing plenty of clips from my work, sometimes you've just got to go and get it done anyway. No more excuses for me...I'll add 'em when I get 'em but I won't just stay waiting for them - gotta keep on pushing...I decided since Actor's Access likes clips now and I've got full dramatic & comedic scenes, I'll put them together as such and work on a quick demo reel later...for now, I'm proud to have some really good scenes, even from my passion project "JANE," by Mike Quain at www.quainphoto.com
Work hard, play focused and keep expressing your art!!! So, it is time to also do my 1/2 yearly cleanse and I start today on my 9+ day quest - 3 days of smoothies, juices and 1-2 vegan meals per day, then 3 days of just juicing and 3+ days on the Master Cleanse to get my insides functioning at optimal level of goodness, because if you know me, you knows I likes to eat!!!! Bring it clean body, mind & spirit...we've got work to do!
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