Although I touched down in L.A. from NOLA around 9p and got my e-mail for the audition the very next day around 11p for 11:30a, I get so excited when I get an audition with sides that are just meaty - especially when I get to go on tape straight to producers! It really makes my day because for the bigger shows/films, if you're not known/related etc., you'll be called in for a line or two if you're lucky. Sometimes you might get a scene to read where you feel like you can give something and then there are the times you get called in for a co-star but it's like 4 pages where you get to play an abusive parent - OH YEAH! These are the times I definitely don't proceed with the thought of booking...this is all gravy for me! I figure with this type of scenes, there's an offer out somewhere to someone already in the mix and since I can't compete with that, I'm gonna give casting something to remember me by or at least to consider. My job is to make it hard for them...whatever there decision is, to really make it difficult for them to decide - I love it when I hear that...even if I'm not the actress chosen. One day I'll be at the receiving end but for now as I'm fighting, I'm gonna make them wonder if they really, truly have the best actor involved - HA! I love being on big studio lots, to consider all that's happen there, it always inspires me to wonder who else walked the same streets, with the same dreams, just wanting to share their art and to realize that I've been given an opportunity to share a piece of my vision. Today, I get to share with Rebecca & Samantha and I've got to say it was one of the warmest rooms I've ever had a chance to audition for. It was so open with possibilities, that I ended up on the floor and they just followed me with the camera - no restrictions, they just allowed me to be in. No redirections - she stated she liked what I did and on to the second scene we went, again no redirections just love for my work...WHAT AN EXPERIENCE! That's the part you've got to enjoy as an artist. We end up with so much rejection all of the time that we focus on that and we don't open ourselves up to enjoy the moment when the room is open and ready to see what we'll give, that they appreciate our time, talent and expression. These are the rooms I take mental note of and store in my heart to remind myself that there are people out there craving to see good work, wherever it may come and that keeps me going with love. Had to sit out once again at Coffee Bean, order a chai tea latte with almond milk over ice and snack on my breakfast sandwich my beast made for me. Although I had to go to work after my romp on Paramount, my day was made brighter because of it and I made sure to celebrate with my vegan Karma cupcakes made like a hostess but better and yes, there was whip frosting goodness in the middle!
Also after touching down from NOLA, the play that I wouldn't change my vacay plans for and didn't get, reached out to me to be an understudy for a bigger role but to also cover the role I auditioned for when she wasn't able to make it. I've never been an understudy and although fearful of what the unknown was, I jumped all in. I immediately went to rehearsals and was overwhelmed by trying to figure out the 2 roles staging and lines. I've been carrying my book and scribbling like a mad woman hoping I'll be able to distinguish my notes from one actor to the other. I feel very welcomed to the production as well as ignored, this has been a very interesting dynamic and journey for me, something to experience once in my life as an actress and as someone who loves the stage and is finally getting the opportunity to explore this aspect of the business. I've been on stage once for the role of whom I'll go on in my guaranteed performance for just a scene or two but more so for the role I auditioned for but won't go on as...so you can see how difficult and chaotic this is. Truly a challenge/fear that I look forward to conquering...because I know, if I can do this...really do this, there won't be too many things that will ever throw me when I'm in that spotlight. I may never do this again, but I know I will do my best given that I have 1 week and a half to get all the lines, learn all the blocking, rehearse the singing (because yes, they keep booking me for singing roles although I always state I can't), learn movement (because yes, there is some in there...which will be my first go at it on stage), get my lap drumming down with my cues as well as just being present. It's okay to try and fail...but think of it as "What if I try and am as glorious as others see?" After my first 4 days, I took my first morning off from the crazy to treat my body to corn cakes, pom mimosa and the first time to look over some lines, because I need at least that to perform. ;)
So in order for me to do this, to put my body through all of this, I must fill my well and give it inspiration. No better weekend, because I was able to go see "The Mermaid Who Learned How To Fly" by Kyla Garcia - a one woman show about loosing your brazeness after growing up, a fairy that reminds her of what she was meant to be and the steps to regain that boldness, Lifebook presents "30/60" - 30 brilliant actors from all acting ranges in 60 minutes and being pleasantly surprised during rehearsal break to walk around and look at the old photos on the wall, only to see that Tyne Daly (whom I had the pleasure to work with) had performed at the Matrix where I'm rehearsing! This beautious "sign" let me know I was right where I was suppose to be. Talk about being re-energized for the new week...BRING IT!!!! I'm scared to pieces ya'll but I will not back down! I will do this and I will celebrate...I trust my art...trust yours!
Although I touched down in L.A. from NOLA around 9p and got my e-mail for the audition the very next day around 11p for 11:30a, I get so excited when I get an audition with sides that are just meaty - especially when I get to go on tape straight to producers! It really makes my day because for the bigger shows/films, if you're not known/related etc., you'll be called in for a line or two if you're lucky. Sometimes you might get a scene to read where you feel like you can give something and then there are the times you get called in for a co-star but it's like 4 pages where you get to play an abusive parent - OH YEAH! These are the times I definitely don't proceed with the thought of booking...this is all gravy for me! I figure with this type of scenes, there's an offer out somewhere to someone already in the mix and since I can't compete with that, I'm gonna give casting something to remember me by or at least to consider. My job is to make it hard for them...whatever there decision is, to really make it difficult for them to decide - I love it when I hear that...even if I'm not the actress chosen. One day I'll be at the receiving end but for now as I'm fighting, I'm gonna make them wonder if they really, truly have the best actor involved - HA! I love being on big studio lots, to consider all that's happen there, it always inspires me to wonder who else walked the same streets, with the same dreams, just wanting to share their art and to realize that I've been given an opportunity to share a piece of my vision. Today, I get to share with Rebecca & Samantha and I've got to say it was one of the warmest rooms I've ever had a chance to audition for. It was so open with possibilities, that I ended up on the floor and they just followed me with the camera - no restrictions, they just allowed me to be in. No redirections - she stated she liked what I did and on to the second scene we went, again no redirections just love for my work...WHAT AN EXPERIENCE! That's the part you've got to enjoy as an artist. We end up with so much rejection all of the time that we focus on that and we don't open ourselves up to enjoy the moment when the room is open and ready to see what we'll give, that they appreciate our time, talent and expression. These are the rooms I take mental note of and store in my heart to remind myself that there are people out there craving to see good work, wherever it may come and that keeps me going with love. Had to sit out once again at Coffee Bean, order a chai tea latte with almond milk over ice and snack on my breakfast sandwich my beast made for me. Although I had to go to work after my romp on Paramount, my day was made brighter because of it and I made sure to celebrate with my vegan Karma cupcakes made like a hostess but better and yes, there was whip frosting goodness in the middle!
Also after touching down from NOLA, the play that I wouldn't change my vacay plans for and didn't get, reached out to me to be an understudy for a bigger role but to also cover the role I auditioned for when she wasn't able to make it. I've never been an understudy and although fearful of what the unknown was, I jumped all in. I immediately went to rehearsals and was overwhelmed by trying to figure out the 2 roles staging and lines. I've been carrying my book and scribbling like a mad woman hoping I'll be able to distinguish my notes from one actor to the other. I feel very welcomed to the production as well as ignored, this has been a very interesting dynamic and journey for me, something to experience once in my life as an actress and as someone who loves the stage and is finally getting the opportunity to explore this aspect of the business. I've been on stage once for the role of whom I'll go on in my guaranteed performance for just a scene or two but more so for the role I auditioned for but won't go on as...so you can see how difficult and chaotic this is. Truly a challenge/fear that I look forward to conquering...because I know, if I can do this...really do this, there won't be too many things that will ever throw me when I'm in that spotlight. I may never do this again, but I know I will do my best given that I have 1 week and a half to get all the lines, learn all the blocking, rehearse the singing (because yes, they keep booking me for singing roles although I always state I can't), learn movement (because yes, there is some in there...which will be my first go at it on stage), get my lap drumming down with my cues as well as just being present. It's okay to try and fail...but think of it as "What if I try and am as glorious as others see?" After my first 4 days, I took my first morning off from the crazy to treat my body to corn cakes, pom mimosa and the first time to look over some lines, because I need at least that to perform. ;)
So in order for me to do this, to put my body through all of this, I must fill my well and give it inspiration. No better weekend, because I was able to go see "The Mermaid Who Learned How To Fly" by Kyla Garcia - a one woman show about loosing your brazeness after growing up, a fairy that reminds her of what she was meant to be and the steps to regain that boldness, Lifebook presents "30/60" - 30 brilliant actors from all acting ranges in 60 minutes and being pleasantly surprised during rehearsal break to walk around and look at the old photos on the wall, only to see that Tyne Daly (whom I had the pleasure to work with) had performed at the Matrix where I'm rehearsing! This beautious "sign" let me know I was right where I was suppose to be. Talk about being re-energized for the new week...BRING IT!!!! I'm scared to pieces ya'll but I will not back down! I will do this and I will celebrate...I trust my art...trust yours!
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